I thought that at 40, I would just accept the fact that I would never find someone anymore. I focused on my job and doing my tasks well. There is someone that I love but she has told me countless times that we can never be together. I thought it was because of our age because while I was 40, she was only 28. She has a lot of qualities that I admire so much in a woman. She has a lot of dreams and she would always like to achieve more. I tried to mend my broken heart by focusing on my nieces and nephews. I have accepted the fact that I will probably never have kids of my own.
One day, we had a team building seminar in the office. There is this one girl whom I have always found to be attractive. Through the team building, I realized just how funny she is. She is game for different things. She fell off the kayak and she did not mind one bit. She is unlike all of the other girls that I have met and fallen in love with before. She is the life of the party. People listen to her whenever she talks. She has a gift to tell stories and make people actually listen to what she has to say no matter how simple or extravagant her stories are.
She is younger than the girl I used to love, only 25. The 15-year age gap cannot be denied. I did not want her to feel that I like her but at the same time, whenever she would need help in the office, I cannot help but go out of my way just to be there for her. She is so naive that she did not think twice about my gestures until the day that I told her that I like her. I asked her out for coffee and she accepted. Things have been different ever since.
I would like to say that I believe that there is always someone out there for you no matter what your age is. I have some friends who are the same age or have been divorced and they usually go to a senior dating site to meet people their age. My preference is younger women but not too young that they would be young enough to be my daughter. The love-of-my-life may be young but she has the maturity of a 40-year old woman. I cannot help but listen to her and be enlightened about the things that I am going through.
The fact that I am already 40 means that I am ready to get married and I just recently proposed to her and she said yes. I cannot help but speculate about how our wedding is going to be. She has been in charge of all the preparations. She always wants me to be with her to decide on the various aspects of our wedding. People might think that her youth makes her after my money but she actually asked me to make a pre-nuptial agreement. This is her way to prove that she has the power and the determination to earn her own money. I cannot help but feel blessed to have her. I know that truly, I have never loved anyone like this, in my time.
Whether you would like to do over 50s dating or even older than that, just push through with it. I have the belief that everyone deserves to be loved.